Hmmm..wat should i say??

so many things happened around me....
i cant express it in words....
coz its too much....
too troublesome...
and too long......
and of coz im wordless about it..(some)
eg,the class incident,family.........this was really really fire me....argh....

just feeling so so so so tense recently....
so helpless....
with all my pimples coming out and attack me when i was weak....
and with my unpredictable mood swing....
i just dun like this ME....
plz get away from me....
i want to be me myself again.....

hmm....a little relieve...haha..im just so simple...haha...

something that can be share about
1...HELP University College - 30 Hour Famime Camp
~ one word to describe--awesome
--meaningful
--amazing
--fun
--crazy
-- enjoyable
~ it was really a memorable moment for us who took part in this event...u will never realize u
can really help in doing so little things...the most challenging part was starving for 30 hours
and not bathing in between.the feeling of a street child....i understand that feeling
now...clearly...by all the amazing games(working non stop,being force to work in the night
market--drug,sex workers,caught by the police,run away from the police,sleep in the park
with all the card board...)...so LIGHTENED UP THEIR LIFE!!! hope to change the world by
doing all this work..spread to others,NO URBAN POVERTY!!lets do it...i will do my best part
to help...i swear...
2. Youth Alpha in church
~ already been in this KRG for a year,and everytime feel so empty and down because it was
like everyone have known each other for long,and me myself cant get into their group...it was
like being left alone...dun like this kind feeling--loneliness...BUT BUT BUT...now,it was all
different,since Alpha,getting to know more about God,trying my best to fellowship with each
other,trying my best to pray to God to help me...this feeling have left me..im one of the big
family now...i can feel it sometimes..so the only thing i have not done was being the 1 who
serve the Lord..so...target...I WANNA BE THE ONE OF THEM...WHO SERVES THE GOD
THAT LOVES US...
3. Again we gather together
~ this was referring to all my primary schools friends...
~ since we have re-gather in the facebook,there are so many event that we have been through
2gt...and its was so touching that even though i had just join them in standard 6,i was not
being left alone..and i feel like another family there...
~ the 1st reunion gathering--weird,shy,coz long time no see...so didn't talk much
~ the birthday celebration--for pei wen and kah wei, better,but still not much talking,maybe
the table is too long..haha..
~ the welcoming party-- for wei jing,much better,chit chat about primary funny things,ghost
story by bell was incredible,makes u never ever wanna talk about ghost in front of her
again...midnite movies...wow...feel so closer to each other again...
~ the farewell party-- again for wei jing,this was..wow..no strange feeling..it was like we all have
back to primary...barbeque...although some of them just sitting there ...but we enjoy to the
maximum during the hours...
~ i was really really happy and to meet with all of them,cant believe that i just know them for 1
year(the shortest) but our friendship is the longest..thank you so much for bringing so much
fun to me..we really cherrish each moment we spent 2gt...friends 4veer...and cant wait to
meet up with all of u for the upcoming event..
4.OSCE result was out
~ huiyo...luckily i PASSED...although it was at the edge of bounderies,but feel so so so relieve
after getting to know my result..i was expecting i will failed the OSCE this time cz i do it very
badly...but Thank God i passed...so must work hard for my summative as what Ms.Premila
had told me..actually she was asking me why have my mark went down,is it due to too much
stress in this sem cz of the class...haih...how should i answer her....anyway,juz gonna do my
best of the best in summative...Gambate!!!


Lastly,i was just hoping that everything will be fine soon...let the trouble and problem be solved...im not sure how long more can i stand for all this...i shall ask some help from some1,but who?? God......is the answer..i hope...i'll give it some time....yeah...maybe this is the only way...i shall be patient...

Be Happy(^..^)